I don't know why anyone would still be following this blog since I haven't posted in 9 weeks. It's difficult to update. Either I'm worried about something (bleeding at 10 weeks....menstrual cramping at 16 weeks) and I'd feel like a huge ass complaining about the fear on a blog that was once an infertility blog. If I was reading it I'd think WTF you're PREGNANT enjoy it. You want real fear? Don't you remember the fear of not knowing if you could actually get pregnant or not?
OR it's the rare day I actually believe I'm going to have a baby and it's such a fragile fleeting moment I don't want to disturb it or jinx it.
As has been the theme in many of my post pregnancy posts...IF takes a lot from you. Even when you get pregnant it still takes.
Now on to good (great, amazing, holy crap) news. I'm 17 weeks pregnant. My belly is growing. We're almost to the part where it's more baby than fat. We had a surprise U/S this week (see early menstrual cramping at 16 weeks) and we found out 1. baby is perfect and measuring right on time. 2. My cervix is still long and tight (TMI?) so the cramping is just my body handling pregnancy and is not affecting anything. 3. It's a girl!!!!!!
I still can't believe it. It's so surreal. I'm not feeling movement yet so every time I see HER on the U/S machine it just feels like I'm watching TV as a tech covers me with goo. But SHE'S real. SHE'S inside me. SHE'S coming in five months.
I'm getting more confident in this. I even ALMOST bought a stroller today. (then decided let's see what the 20week scan shows....)
