Sunday, June 21, 2009

Bad Day

My FIL died today. Father's Day.

After an all to brief battle with cancer. Diagnosised in Decemeber. 6 months from the healthest 62 year old I've ever known to a shadow of his former self.

He died at home. His wife, son and daughter were by his side. He had a couple of bad hours, but the end was peaceful.

Yesterday he had taken a turn for the worst. Only one day that he couldn't get out of bed. Felt pain. Was incoherent. I feel like the worst part of cancer is the suffering at the end. The loss of dignity. Thankfully this was also brief.

I'm sure the rush to the airport, the luggage, the stress is not great for em-baby. Honestly at this point...who cares?

My mom seems to think this embryo will stick. It will be a boy. We'll name it Jack after my FIL.

If this was a movie that's how it would happen.

I have been reminded over and over the past six months that our life is not a movie.
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11 comments:

  1. APJune 21, 2009 at 9:52 PM

    I'm so sorry to hear your sad news. My deepest sympathies to you and your DH...

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  2. 'Murgdan'June 22, 2009 at 2:30 AM

    I'm so so sorry for your loss.

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  3. CeliaJune 22, 2009 at 3:15 AM

    I am so sorry.

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  4. osurajJune 22, 2009 at 5:59 AM

    I'm so sorry.

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  5. KateJune 22, 2009 at 5:59 AM

    I am so sorry for your loss.

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  6. FlowerJune 22, 2009 at 6:18 AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I just went through that exact same thing during my IVF cycle. It was my father. My situation only got worse cuz I got a negative beta two days b4 my father died. Try to stay focus on family. I am praying that your story ends on a positive note with a BFP. It would be so nice to have it happen just like your mother said. Praying that you have a miracle growing inside of you right now.

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  7. JenniferJune 22, 2009 at 7:26 AM

    I'm sorry. I hope you all only have the happiest of memories to remember him by. Jack is a great name. Fingers crossed your mom is right.

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  8. ChristinaJune 22, 2009 at 8:02 AM

    I am so sorry. I'm praying you have that movie ending.

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  9. LeaJune 22, 2009 at 9:18 AM

    I'm so sorry. Thinking good thoughts for your little embaby and your family.

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  10. AnnieJune 22, 2009 at 10:16 AM

    I am so sorry for your loss. You and your family are in my prayers.

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  11. CandiceJune 22, 2009 at 12:36 PM

    So sorry for your loss. Wishing for that movie ending for you.

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