And life is....
Not bad. I'd actually say it's good.
My first two days of work have been so amazing. It's so different from the last show I was on. Instead of stress hives I break out in smiles (Holy crap that was cheesy...I'm tired...I haven't written an entry in a while...I'm rusty....back off!)
On my last show, the day I found out my FIL had cancer we were shooting an episode my partner and I wrote. She was on set. I was in the writers' room. My husband called up crying because he found out his dad had a short time to live. I rushed home. My boss dragged my writing partner off set to fill my place. When she protested (there were a DOZEN other writers in the room and NO ONE else on set) he made some snide remark like, "Why? Are you so Brilliant they can't do without you?".
Cut to my new job. I take the ENTIRE first week off because of the funeral. Instead of guilt trips and bitchy comments the new show sends me flowers saying "We're thinking of you. From you new Family at NAMEOFSHOW". These people are amazing. This is life changing.
I didn't realize how my last job was until I got into a normal, healthy, HAPPY situation.
I drive home now to gorgeous weather, in my gorgeous town, to my gorgeous house (that's it above....GORGEOUS right??) and the greatest husband ever. I got to sleep with my cats curled around me. I wake up excited to go to work.
Yes. I wish this IVF worked. Yes. I wish my FIL didn't have to die at 62. Yes. Those are two unbelievably horrible things to have to deal with.
And still I would classify myself as lucky. I am so lucky. Life is good. And after a short break we'll jump right back in to the wonderful world of IVF.
It's great that even after everything you've had to deal with lately you can see the positives around you. That's such an inspiring outlook... so glad you're liking the new job!
ReplyDeleteI am glad you are feeling better. I am sorry for the loss of your FIL and failed IVF. GL with your break and I hope the next one is super sticky!
ReplyDeleteSounds like your new job rocks!!!!
That's wonderful that you are feeling good and can see past the bad to all the good around you. It's not easy to do sometimes. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry for all you've been through this month, but I am glad that you are able to find joy in all that is good in your life despite the suckiness. I agree that you have a wonderful husband, amazing kitties, and a beautiful house. And thank god you have a better job- I can't believe how douchey that last guy was to you...
ReplyDeleteWhat a remarkable attitude. But you're right, sometimes you have to look at all of the wonderful things you have and not what you don't.
ReplyDeleteGlad things are turning up!