I was not surprised. I've been testing since 3dp5dt and saw nothing but bright white.
It sucks. No doubt.
It sucked every time I saw a white pee stick.
It sucked having to take the stupid PIO shots that gave me stupid night sweats even though I knew I wasn't pregnant.
It sucked having to get poked several times today to get enough blood to tell me I'm not pregnant.
It sucked when my RE called and gave me sad voice.
It sucked when that RE mentioned this might be an egg quality issues since someone my age should have more than one kid out of all the eggs I made.
It sucked when the fear came back....will it ever happen again?
What doesn't suck? This time when I was trying to hold back my tears my 13 month old daughter....the most amazing girl in the world....climbed into my lap and hugged me.
Yes it was a BFN but I am still so FUCKING lucky. I'm a Mom.
Should get AF on Christmas Day (joy) and start cycling for my next IVF in February.