Oh...nothing...just started stimming for an IVF!
That's right! My body worked! My lining was thin. My ovaries were cyst free. My E2, FSH and all those other letters in my blood were low and good to go!
This is what I wanted. But when my RE told me this morning I got scared. Last IVF attempt I had a long time to prepare for it. First I had a cyst that needed to go away. That was a month and a half of BCP. Then I had to wait for AF. CD3 showed I still had a lot of lining (which was INSANE cause we all know what CD2 and CD3 are like). Then I finally got ready to stim and my bloodwork came back with high estrogen levels. IVF Canceled.
Well, this time I had no time to mentally prepare. I honestly didn't think I'd get to do this. I still might not. Anything can go wrong. But so far....and this is weird to say....things are going right.
I'll be doing a flare protocol which means I find out I'm doing IVF today and my ER is probably going to be around June 13. TEN DAYS from now. You can see why I'm kinda freaking out.
I'm on 3 shots a night. 10 IUI of Lupron - easy. I'm an old Lupron pro.
300 IUI of Follistim - Whatever. Did it before. No problem.
1 vial of Menopur - Okay...now we have a new one. And a quick google showed over and over again the words "Menopur burn". I was not looking foward to this one. YES there is a burn. But if you're reading this and haven't done it yet...don't be worried. It's not bad. I don't WANT Menopur burn, but I can do it.
Isn't that the IF mantra? I don't want it, but I can do it. The shots. The bloodwork. The ultrasounds. It ain't easy. But we can do it.
Yes I'm scared of the IVF unknown. But I CAN do it.