Once again. These mean nothing. I just want my future self to be aware of what is "normal" for a failed cycle.
Last night was a horrible night. I woke up dozens of times. Sometimes cause of cramps. Sometimes cause of bloat. Sometimes cause of hot flashes. Sometimes cause my back hurt. I just could not get comfortable.
I had a dream I got a BFP. We didn't know if the test was faulty so we ran to the pile of Dollar Store tests I keep next to the toilet. I had used them all! We Panicked. I woke up.
I have had three small bouts of nausea today. I think it's cause of the stress.
I had an acupuncture appointment today. I walked in to the office and asked if she'd put the space heater on cause I was cold. 2 minutes later she was testing my pulse and I had a HUGE hot flash. She could feel the heat radiating off my body. She shut the space heater off. By the time she was done poking me I was cold again and needed the heater back on.
I have cried so many times today. I'm an emotional wreck.
I did POAS today. BFN.
Why am I starting to get my hopes I? Don't I know how bad it will hurt if/ WHEN I'm not pregnant?
On a happier less psychotic note.... I got a job. Woohoo!