Saturday, May 30, 2009

Pick Yourself Up - Dust Yourself Off - And Start All Over Again

The post title is a song Fred Astaire sang in the movie Swing Time.  I've always liked the song.  Now I love it.  The woman he's dancing with up there is Ginger Rogers who if you're not an old movie fan and haven't seen many of her movies she's gorgeous and spunky and funny and way more than his dance partner.  But I digress....

It's amazing what a good night's sleep can do to a person.  I don't feel happy.  But I feel better.

This is also the first weekend my husband and I have had together in a while.  So that make everything better.

I think we are going to do whatever my body tells us to do.  If I get AF in time, have no cysts, have good hormone levels and my lining thins enough we'll jump right in to the IVF.  Those are a lot of ifs and as my previous attempt at IVF will show my body's not great at doing what I want.  So we'll see.

Today I'm drinking alcohol (raspberry lambic).  I'm drinking caffeine (pepsi throwback...I'm a coke girl, but a sucka for real sugar).  I had carnal relations with my husband.  I think I'm going to take a hot bath.   So screw you IF.  Today I'm just a normal girl.

Well, almost normal.  Something I wasn't expecting was how PAINFUL my pre-AF cramps were going to be.  I guess stimming and progesterone and all the other shit I did to myself is taking it's vengeance.  

When I'm not crumpled over in extreme pain I'm am cheering my uterus on.  Come on ute!  Let's start AF!  We've got an IVF in our near future!


  1. I think that is a great decision (not that I know anything about any of this, but whatever) and I am really glad today was a bit of a better day. Amazing what a wee bit of liquor and caffeine will do, isn't it?

  2. I've heard from others that the post-IVF-AF is awful. I'm planning to eat some of my leftover Vicodin that day. The only thing that makes the idea of a BFN palatable to me is the fact that there can be another.

  3. My AF after stims was HORRID. Worst EVAH. More cramps, more bleeding. So glad that's over with....Hang in there. This too shall pass.

    Bummer to have to pull out that box of tampons again though. I am forever throwing it in the back of the cabinet and saying "I won't be needing you for the next year"

    Yeah. Right.

  4. I always acted like a normal girl when I knew my cycle was over, I think it helped to get me back into the right frame of mind.

    I am routing for your ute!